I've been writing fiction for nearly a decade. I've been published with independent presses who have great credentials, that have won awards, for example.
However, every time I pitch agents there's silence and no additional work is requested. I have had my works nominated for awards as well. I'm also a horror writer.
What is it? Am I destined to be an indie author for the rest of my life? Is it that my writing, voice, topics I write about are just not mainstream enough?
I've doubted myself, my writing, my purpose, and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I have multiple novels I've written and shelved. I'm working on another but so far the reception by agents is similar to what I have seen in the past.
I know everyone says be resolute, you only need one yes, and so on, but when I see people getting agented who are newly on the scene I just keep noticing my greying hair and my increased doubt.
So, all in all, I don't know if it's my writing, my genre, me or something else at this point, and I'm completely confused as to next steps.
I was hoping you could offer some insight.
I assume when you say "pitch agents" what you mean is you're sending queries. And do you really mean you're hearing zip? Not even form replies?
Horror is a tough field for major presses. Not a lot of them publish it. (Don't everyone point to Stephen King, please. He's an outlier.)
And horror is VERY hard to query, particularly cosmic horror.
And querying with a publishing history with small presses means you've got a sales track record that will need some fancy footwork.
This is the point where you need to plunk yourself down in front of an agent at one of those miserable pitch sessions conferences seem to like so much, bring out your query letter and get some
as-close-to-honest-as-we're-likely-to-be feedback on what's going on here. I'll be at one of those on April 20-21 in Minnesota. There are lots of conferences; pick one you can afford where there are agents who've sold stuff (not all conferences vet their agents)
Since you're published my guess is you've got some writing chops so it's not bad writing.
My guess is that horror and a query letter that isn't doing the job are what's to blame here.